I was busy thinkin’ ’bout a boy

We’ve never talked. Sometimes, I can feel him staring at me. Or it’s just my imagination. But when I meet his gaze, I swear I can see millions of questions floating around in the iris of his eyes. I don’t even know their colour. Is it brown? I think it is.

Sometimes, I am afraid to look at him. I’m afraid I will notice judgment instead of lust plastered on his face. I wonder if he finds me fascinating… if I arouse his mind a little bit. Does he think of me?

Cause I think about him. And his lips. And how much I would love to have them pressed against mine.


a poem for my ex best friend

i am sorry i wasn’t a good friend

i am sorry i didn’t stay

beside you till the end

like i promised

i left you when you needed me most

sometimes i feel like it’s my fault

that you got lost

i don’t think i’ll ever forgive myself

for throwing you even further

into the void you slipped in

i wish i could turn back time

to the moment we were besties

i am sorry

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What I’ve Been Loving In The Summer Of 2k17

This summer was way too short. But I was (un)lucky enough to obsess over a huge amount of things. And, obviously, I want to share my obsessions with you, dear readers. So here we go…




Big Magic! by Elizabeth Gilbert


The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde


If you want to know what my thoughts about those two are, you can read my “Books Lately #3” post right here.

The Power Of Now by Eckhart Tolle


Soon, I’ll review this book in a future “Books Lately” post along with some other goodies that I’ve read.




One of the best TV shows I have seen so far. The plot follows Mary Sibley and her coven who are trying to complete the Grand Rite. Although there were some disturbing images here and there, I didn’t really get scared. It’s important to understand that the series does not mean to portray what actually happened in Salem. So it’s not accurate from a historical point of view because, well, it was just inspired by the Salem witch trials. Anyway, I recommend it to everyone who loves stories about the occult, witches in general and magic.

X-men: Evolution


I’ve seen some of the episodes when I was a child, but not the whole series. One night I just remembered about how much I used to love it and decided to watch the whole thing. I ABSOLUTELY loved it. My favorite characters must be Quicksilver, Nightcrawler, Storm and Wolverine (of course). You can watch it on YouTube.


The Grand Budapest Hotel


This is not just a summer favorite. This is officially my favorite movie (so far). I have loved everything about it. It has comedy, serious moments, lovable characters, wonderful images, the colors are amazing… 10/10 for sure. You have to see it!

Nocturnal Animals


It blew my mind. I honestly (and shamefully) never believed that Tom Ford would be able to direct something as beautiful as this. But it just proves that art is art and you can succeed in any of its areas if you believe in your powers and you are true to yourself. The story is about a woman named Susan. She receives a manuscript from her ex husband. While she reads it, she realizes that the whole book is a metaphor of their love. Great movie! And as a bonus, both Jake Gyllenhaal and Aaron Taylor-Johnson play in it.

Hotel Transylvania


This was so funny and entertaining! The animation is amazing, the characters super sweet and they make you laugh a lot. I can’t wait to see HT2! Also, Dracula’s accent was so lovely.


  • Jake Gyllenhaal, Aaron Taylor-Johnson, Tom Hiddleston, Janet Montgomery, Chris Evans, Dua Lipa and Elizabeth Olsen (lovely people)
  • Marvel (I don’t know where I’ve been all this time, but I am finally on board)
  • Journaling (been writing in my journal almost every day)
  • Driving (started taking driving lessons… love it)
  • German (what a great language)

What have you, dear readers, been obsessing over this summer?


i wanted to kiss you so bad last night

my lips said no – twice –

although my insides screamed yes – twice –

it was so out of nowhere

the thought that you wanted to share

the way you taste with me

made me feel free

of worry and insecurities

but my past with him made me feel trapped

and i could not kiss you

even if i wanted to do it so bad

so, so, so fucking bad

– twice –

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aftermath of soul sharing

i made her immortal and she thinks it’s cute

it might be true… what people say

“one who does not like flowers has no soul”

soulless or not, i still love her

she’s got her own way of showing appreciation

colder, dry of emotion and a small smile to end it

yet, she still makes me feel like i get a glimpse

into the paradise each time i watch her be

and that is enough for me

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a poem about carmen

you move like the ocean

and look like the sky at dawn

even in the morning light

i could still see stars shining

in the iris of your eyes

and when the smoke protrudes your lips

i wonder just how one so wonderful

does not like flowers

perhaps when your turn to walk on earth came

the universe wanted to create

a vessel similar to the one

worn by ancient gods and royalties

so alluring, yet indecipherable

like an artwork by Dali

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