loving someone

i don’t want to torn asunder your mind

i know you hate it when it’s gray

you know it’s hard for me to choose

between black and white

you might not get it now

but you will, eventually

perhaps i’ll still be waiting

waiting for you to understand that

i can love more people at once

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roses and guns

i’d swallow oceans just to make sure

i stay asleep the nights that are to come

my eyelids are heavy, they beg me to close them

but the stars caught my attention once again

and the moon shines brightly like never before

yet it is dark, too dark to see

silence fills the room and i have to sing the song myself

for there is no one out there

to sing it for me

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a poem for my ex best friend

i am sorry i wasn’t a good friend

i am sorry i didn’t stay

beside you till the end

like i promised

i left you when you needed me most

sometimes i feel like it’s my fault

that you got lost

i don’t think i’ll ever forgive myself

for throwing you even further

into the void you slipped in

i wish i could turn back time

to the moment we were besties

i am sorry

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i wanted to kiss you so bad last night

my lips said no – twice –

although my insides screamed yes – twice –

it was so out of nowhere

the thought that you wanted to share

the way you taste with me

made me feel free

of worry and insecurities

but my past with him made me feel trapped

and i could not kiss you

even if i wanted to do it so bad

so, so, so fucking bad

– twice –

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aftermath of soul sharing

i made her immortal and she thinks it’s cute

it might be true… what people say

“one who does not like flowers has no soul”

soulless or not, i still love her

she’s got her own way of showing appreciation

colder, dry of emotion and a small smile to end it

yet, she still makes me feel like i get a glimpse

into the paradise each time i watch her be

and that is enough for me

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a poem about carmen

you move like the ocean

and look like the sky at dawn

even in the morning light

i could still see stars shining

in the iris of your eyes

and when the smoke protrudes your lips

i wonder just how one so wonderful

does not like flowers

perhaps when your turn to walk on earth came

the universe wanted to create

a vessel similar to the one

worn by ancient gods and royalties

so alluring, yet indecipherable

like an artwork by Dali

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